As my seeds are starting to sprout, I have been thinking about how marvelous the gardening process is. How you take a seed that is asleep, you put it into dirt, water it, and give it light, and it wakes up. It is really a beautiful thing.
I was drinking my morning coffee, and I saw a picture.
I am a farmer planting my seeds. I don’t plant all of them at the same time, but eventually I get them all in the ground. In a short amount of time, some of the ones I planted last started popping up first. It starts the excitement of watching things grow. Then one by one, day after day, they all start showing their new leaves. Except for the ones I planted first. The joy of the new seedlings leaves and is traded for disappointment. All that work I did for the first ones doesn’t seem to be paying off. As a lot of us do, I start fixating on it and make up reasons why they aren’t growing. “Maybe they were bad seeds, maybe I planted them wrong, maybe I just can’t grow ‘x’.” Although I am disappointed, I don’t dig them out. After a season passes, finally the sprouts come up from the ground.
This isn’t about seeds, it’s about life. When we sow into ourselves, it takes time to see a change. Sometimes we will start investing in ourselves with less obvious things that take a long time to see, sometimes our work will be almost immediate. And just like the parable, sometimes we won’t see the things we did super early on until we go through something really hard. It doesn’t mean the work you do isn’t important, and it doesn’t mean you did something wrong. Most likely, the time you sow into yourself has already germinated.
My advice, don’t give up and rip out those seeds. Keep working, keep going, and know that you are making a difference. You are important! And loving yourself, letting yourself be loved, and loving others is the best way for you to become who you were always meant to be.
Take care,
Jacqueline Marie with SOW.
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